This is an exercise I took from the book the Right to Wright by Giulia Cameron. As usual, she invites the writer to start writing regardless of the mood, inspired or not, in which She finds herself. With this exercise, we learn to write from any starting mood. I chose a recent episode to test the validity of this exercise. And it is the following.
X’s attempt to manipulate the female character’s emotions and make her feel like a failure
monologue
What can I say? To my great surprise, I don’t feel angry. But I am amazed. Is she so low-level? And yet she presents herself as someone who knows everything and gets everything right. A kind of indispensable superwoman, whose judgment counts. I was amazed by her meanness but above all by her ineffectiveness. L. menaged to hurt me more. No surprise, She’s a more experienced bitch. But her? Where was she going with this? I don’t know, maybe it’s because I didn’t have great expectations of her and I had already lost all trust that she didn’t hurt me. But I’m still amazed. Not only for trying to hurt me and make me feel bad. But above all because she is completely wrong! She is defending a crime committed against me. Not only that, I was exposed in public and put in danger for a campaign that I did not consent to. No one asked me to. And you attack me because I defended myself from this abuse? I am speechless. I simply do not know how I should feel about her. It is all so senseless and stupid! I don’t know, I really don’t know… How do I feel? Surprised… That’s all… Shocked… By a person who has no perception of how low she has fallen…
Mood verification notes
How did I start? I felt neutral, now I am confused and shocked. The more the main character thinks about it, the more She can’t see the logic of this person. If not the logic of arrogance, revenge and malice. Of pettiness. And what shocks her is, precisely, that that woman, all those people, are completely wrong not only in the face of conscience, but even in the face of the law!
Exercise Report
I started neutral but the more I continue, the more I enter a state of confused amazement. I can feel neither anger nor pain nor sorrow. Only amazement.
